Title: temporary relief
Rating: M
Fandom: Slow Damage
Relationship: Fujieda Ryo/Towa
Wordcount: 490
Short summary: Ryo would fulfill Towa’s request for rough sex, if that would help bring temporary relief from the nightmares.
“Fuck… more… faster… ngh…”
“Nh… haah… yes… Towa…”
A few minutes ago, Towa and Ryo had been sleeping on this bed, Towa’s back to Ryo’s chest. Towa had been breathing normally, peacefully, and Ryo too had been lost to the world of sleep. But sometimes, like tonight, there was a sudden onslaught of nightmares, necessitating an urgent response. Or, for Towa, the need to be touched in a way to overwrite those nightmares.
Ryo was hesitant at first when Towa asked him to fuck away the nightmares, for wasn’t the subject of such nightmares related to the sexual abuse Towa suffered as a child? In addition, Towa insisted that Ryo do so roughly, to give him a mix of pain and pleasure that would help him pass out. Ryo could not help but worry about Towa’s health, for surely this was no way to properly treat…
But that was the point. This wasn’t a cure. This was just temporary relief.
“Fuck… Ryo… ngh… close…”
Still, Ryo wanted to at least make sure Towa called the shots. He would only be as rough as Towa asked. He would only say demeaning things if Towa asked. Tonight Towa asked for a rough mutual hand job. Honestly Ryo was glad it was something rather straightforward. He wanted the sex between him and Towa to fill more and more with good memories, more akin to making love than rough fucking.
He hoped one day that he wouldn’t have to do this, like this…
“Towa… nh… haah…”
“Wanna… come… Ryo…”
In the middle of the night, in complete darkness… Ryo would be kissing Towa right now if this was for pleasure. Instead he was focused on getting them off as quickly as possible, so that Towa could get some rest and at least salvage some part of the night.
“Hah… hah… hahhhh…”
“Nghhhh…”
White liquid finally squirted out onto Ryo’s bare chest. Ryo used to go to bed wearing clothes but recently changed to being shirtless. It made clean up easier, something that he insisted he do and not Towa. No, Towa was to lay there, blissed out, free of his nightmare. For now, at least.
For Ryo, who swore to take responsibility for the truth, for the “true” Towa… If there was one thing he would do forever, no matter what, it would be to take care of Towa in any way, big or small, no matter how many times.
“Sleep well, Towa,” Ryo whispered as he wiped his hand, his chest, their cocks clean with a tissue. He fixed up their clothes, pulled the sheets back over their bodies. Then he pressed one light kiss to Towa’s forehead before slipping his arms around Towa’s waist, to hold Towa like he had before this episode. As if to reset to their prior states…
Ryo hoped, before he closed his eyes once more, that the next time he opened them, the room would be bright.