Title: post-dramatic feelings
Rating: E
Fandom: Tokyo 24-ku
Relationship: Agatsuma Taiga/Sonogi Akihiro
Wordcount: 6371
Short summary: After the events of the drama CD "Love and Obey", Internal Security has given Akihiro a new SP to take Taiga’s place temporarily. Akihiro finds himself missing Taiga fiercely, especially when it seems Taiga doesn’t need him as much…?
“Minister Sonogi.”
“Miyaoka-san? Please come in.”
Akihiro smiles professionally as he welcomes two men from Internal Security into his office. If he had recognized both men, perhaps the smile might have widened into a friendly one. Perhaps he should be more gracious, considering everything Miyaoka has done for him, but Miyaoka’s presence doesn’t mitigate Akihiro’s disappointment in not seeing a certain tall, dark, and handsome figure in step behind Miyaoka. Even if Akihiro himself had given Taiga the medicine to combat fever and forced Taiga to rest... Yes, Akihiro needs to remind himself that Taiga not being here is a good thing. After all, if Taiga was allowed to do whatever he wanted, he’d probably try to do all his tasks even with only one hand…
Akihiro coughs, to clear his throat as well as his mind. He does his best to widen his smile; he’s a public figure, he has practice. “Hello, Miyaoka-san. Is this…”
“Fujimori Yuuki.” Miyaoka thankfully rescues Akihiro from having to say Taiga’s replacement. “He will be serving in place of Agatsuma-kun until Agatsuma-kun is ready to return.”
Akihiro takes a moment to truly look at the man standing at Miyaoka’s side. There is nothing actually wrong with the man; the fitted suit, straight posture, and neutral expression are all appropriate for a SP. It’s just… Taiga is slightly broader and taller and younger-looking, which really just highlights how extraordinary Taiga is and not that this person would not be adequate.
Akihiro nods. “Fujimori-kun, is that right?”
“Yes, sir.” Fujimori’s voice is a bit higher-pitched than Taiga’s. Which has nothing to do with his competency but still something Akihiro notices.
“Thank you for being here.” Akihiro sticks out his hand. If he can’t quite show friendliness as easily with his words or facial expression, at least he can do this. He’s glad Fujimori takes it and gives it a firm shake. “I look forward to working with you.”
Handshakes done, Fujimori retreats to where Miyaoka stands. Akihiro looks over to Miyaoka, hoping he can ask something before Miyaoka leaves.
But Miyaoka answers it before Akihiro can speak again. “Agatsuma-kun will be back to work tomorrow. He is temporarily assigned other duties but can be reached any time if necessary.”
Akihiro nods. “Thank you, Miyaoka-san.” That’s confirmation enough that Taiga is fine and resting today, which relieves tension Akihiro didn’t realize had been building this whole time in his chest.
Miyaoka’s wry smile suggests he knows Akihiro’s feelings. Fujimori’s expression remains neutral. “Have a good rest of your day, Minister Sonogi.” Miyaoka turns and gives Fujimori a nod. “Fujimori-kun, please send a report later.”
Fujimori nods. “Yes, sir.” He escorts Miyaoka out of the room before looking back at Akihiro. Akihiro makes a nod and Fujimori leaves the room, shutting the door firmly behind him. Now alone, Akihiro lets out a big sigh.
Alright, he should put this all behind him. The stacks of papers Tademaru had left on his desk won’t read themselves. And Taiga is healthy enough to return to work tomorrow. Even if it’ll take time for the hand to heal, at least mentally Taiga is… So Akihiro too needs to mentally get himself back together. He swore to become stronger, right? No time like the present to start improving…
At the respectable time of 7 PM, just after returning to his apartment under Fujimori’s watch, Akihiro sends a message to Taiga.
Akihiro: I heard from Miyaoka-san that you will be back to work tomorrow. Don’t push yourself too hard.
Taiga: Yes, I will be there. Is it alright if I come see you?
Akihiro isn’t surprised that the reply is nearly instantaneous. He had hoped Taiga had been waiting for his message even if he forced himself not to send one until he was finished with his work for the day. Partly as a professional act to keep work and personal matters separate, and partly as a reward for himself for getting through his work today.
Akihiro: Of course.
It would be fine if Taiga stopped by, right? Miyaoka had stopped by a few times when Taiga first started as Akihiro’s personal SP to make sure everything was running smoothly. Taiga can just make sure Fujimori is doing okay. Although tomorrow there are no meetings offsite that really require Fujimori’s or any SP services… If Akihiro’s wish to see Taiga and vice-versa is rather selfish… Not that Akihiro should be trying to test Fujimori’s discreteness so early, but perhaps Fujimori should know. That, when Akihiro opens his eyes and looks up from his desk, he expects to see Taiga in the suit and feels a twinge in his chest when it isn’t Taiga.
Akihiro sighs. He stops himself from typing more on his phone by stowing it above the headboard. Time for dinner, shower, sleep. After all, the sooner he goes to bed, the sooner the next day comes. And the sooner he gets to see Taiga again…right?
Akihiro does get to see Taiga the next day, but the time and location takes Akihiro completely by surprise. He had guessed it would be a courtesy visit during lunch break or whenever else Taiga would have a break in his schedule. But when the workday passes without any sign of Taiga, even when other Internal Security personnel come to exchange words with Fujimori, Akihiro figures Taiga’s new duties must be keeping him busy and away. It is what it is, he thinks to himself while typing up a last email. And then Taiga walks through the door.
“Agatsuma-kun!” Akihiro can’t help his happy shout. He also can’t help himself from giving Taiga a look over; the lack of a glove on Taiga’s left hand is the only big difference in his otherwise normal work attire.
Taiga, though, simply bows his head slightly in polite greeting. “Good evening, sir. Fujimori-san has informed me that you are leaving soon. For efficiency’s sake I requested he take me home at the same time, if that is okay with you?”
“Of course, yes!” Akihiro knows he is smiling widely. He’s so happy to spend some time with Taiga. “Having two officers in the car is better than one, right?”
Neither Taiga nor Fujimori changes facial expression at that quip. Ah, they really are both professionals. Thankfully Tademaru isn’t here to scold Akihiro for not acting professional himself.
When they reach the car, Fujimori opens the backseat door and ushers Akihiro inside. Akihiro scoots over towards the other side of the car expecting Taiga to enter behind him, but when the door shuts without Taiga…
“I will sit in the front passenger seat.”
Akihiro’s mouth opens and closes without making a sound. It seems this is the professional manner in which to escort a politician, to give said politician the most amount of physical space and a little privacy. Akihiro keeps himself seated behind Fujimori, which allows him to sneak glances at Taiga without needing to strain his body.
Because Taiga looks a lot more energetic now than he did two nights ago. Of course Akihiro knows Taiga is physically strong. But remembering how Taiga looked after taking the medicine, peacefully sleeping but physically hot and exhausted… Akihiro has this urge to touch Taiga, to feel that his skin is not flushed from fever, although if there was another reason for heat…
“We have arrived, sir.”
Akihiro blinks. It takes him a moment to realize that they are indeed in the parking lot of his apartment building. “Oh. Apologies. I must be tired.”
Only Fujimori steps out of the car. Only Fujimori opens the door and escorts Akihiro to his apartment. If Akihiro had dared, he could have talked to Taiga in the car, even with Fujimori around. Would Taiga have responded? Before the incident, they had spent many hours chatting casually on the drive home. But only after they started dating. So is Taiga trying to set a good example…
Akihiro mulls over this as he heats up dinner. He’s halfway through eating his bowl of noodles when his phone screen lights up. A message from Taiga!
Taiga: I’m home.
Taiga: It was good to see you today.
Akihiro: It was good to see you too.
Akihiro: Can I call?
Taiga: Yes.
Akihiro quickly finishes his noodles before starting the phone call, putting it on speaker mode as he unbuttons his dress shirt.
“Akihiro-san?” Taiga’s voice comes through in its usual quiet manner.
“Taiga, how was your day today? Did everything go well?” Akihiro knows this is a trite topic but anything to hear more of Taiga’s voice…
“There weren’t any problems.” There is a sound of a glass being set on a table, a bit louder than Akihiro would expect. It makes Akihiro wonder if Taiga is managing everything at his apartment okay with just one hand. It is his non-dominant hand that is broken, but…
“Is Fujimori-san doing alright?”
The question throws Akihiro off. Then again, he should have expected this. Taiga probably can’t talk about what he is assigned to do now. “Yeah.”
But then what can Akihiro ask him about? How can he keep the conversation going? Two days ago, Taiga had been the one to make that request that led to Akihiro staying extra…but now that Taiga is back to work, he won’t…? And Akihiro instead has to…
“Taiga, I…”
I miss you.
“Will you be in the car home every night?”
Akihiro feels his whole body flush even asking this question. Had he sounded too…? Maybe it’s because of the vocal distortion of a phone call that Taiga doesn’t seem to pick up any strangeness from Akihiro, for his response is rather muted.
“If it is okay with you.”
Akihiro finds himself frowning. “Of course it is. Efficiency is good after all.” What is he doing, getting all embarrassed when Taiga is all cool? When Taiga was the one who acted, asked and then came to see Akihiro?
A minute passes and Akihiro thinks too many things that he can’t express well over the phone. I love you. I want you. Tell me you love me. Tell me you need me. If you ask I will…
“I will see you tomorrow.”
Taiga’s voice interrupts Akihiro’s thoughts. It sounds like he wants to end the call. There’s the sound of a glass being set on the table once more. Perhaps Taiga is taking some medicine and is going to bed soon? In that case, Akihiro should let him go.
“Alright. Good night, Taiga.”
“Good night, Akihiro-san.”
When the call ends Akihiro lets out a big sigh. Why is he the one feeling so…needy? That’s not their usual dynamic. Usually Taiga makes a request and Akihiro humors him… Especially since Akihiro is technically Taiga’s superior, he tries not to be that in their private lives, but… It’s just that, Taiga seems so composed right now. He had seemed just as shaken up by the incident as Akihiro two days ago, making heated declarations and loving Akihiro so fiercely, but maybe as a SP Taiga just has to get over it faster. Taiga’s being strong… Akihiro has sworn to be stronger too.
But he really wants Taiga to…
Akihiro spends the next morning reading and composing emails, so focused on completing as many as he can before Tademaru returns to the office and adds more work to his pile that it takes Fujimori a few tries to finally catch Akihiro’s attention.
“Sandwiches?” Akihiro sees a bunch of cut sandwiches on a tray. Half of a chicken katsu sandwich, a quarter of a yakisoba pan, a quarter of a strawberry cream… “Who ordered them?”
“Agatsuma-san brought them over.”
“Agatsuma-kun!” Akihiro immediately gets on his feet. “Excuse me for a moment, I need to go see…”
He doesn’t finish his sentence to Fujimori as he flies out of the room. If Taiga was just here, if Taiga might still be close by… He doesn’t even consider what Fujimori should do in response to his wild actions. He spins around a corner and sees the familiar figure from the back. He doesn’t care how it looks or sounds as he shouts Taiga’s name. “Agatsuma-kun!”
Taiga turns around immediately with an expression of concern. “Minister Sonogi?”
Akihiro closes the distance between them quickly, stopping an arms-length away. Thankfully because it is lunch hour for most people, no one else is in the hallway. Fujimori hasn’t followed, or at least he isn’t visible. No one else witnessed Akihiro’s outburst except possibly Fujimori. Akihiro doesn’t care right now about Fujimori; his eyes, his mind, his heart are only on Taiga.
“Taiga…” he murmurs quietly. He looks down at Taiga’s left wrist. “Is everything…at home…” He shakes his head slightly, wanting to rephrase the question. “Can you handle everything with that?”
Taiga nods. “There is no issue.” He looks down at his own hand. “I am sorry. I will recover as soon as possible.”
“You don’t have to apologize.” Akihiro wants to reach out and smooth the furrow of Taiga’s brow. He wants to reach out and kiss that cast and pretend that it’ll help it heal faster. “You should...”
You should let me take care of you.
But Taiga doesn’t hear Akihiro’s thoughts. He straightens up as if taking ownership of his shortcomings. “Fujimori-san is a good man. But I want to be by your side as your SP again.”
“Taiga…” It’s unfair to Fujimori for Akihiro to be smiling right now, but his heart is warmed hearing those words from Taiga’s lips. “Me too. I want you by my side.”
“I will do my best.” Taiga bows and turns to leave. Don’t go! He’s only taken one step before Akihiro speaks out in a panic.
“Can you…if you can…” Akihiro pauses when Taiga turns back around to face him. “Can you bring lunch again tomorrow?”
Taiga nods. “Of course, Minister Sonogi. I will coordinate with Fujiimori-san and Tademaru-san.”
“That’s…” Akihiro feels like Taiga is either not understanding the request or sidestepping it, but with the sounds of footsteps coming closer to them in the hallway, Akihiro can’t clarify his words. He can’t have outsiders seeing him make a request of Taiga as one man would to his lover. “That’s good. See you later?”
“Have a good day, Minister Sonogi.”
Akihiro watches Taiga walk away for a few steps before turning around and heading back to his office, nodding to Fujimori as he walks back through the door. Once seated, he picks up the cut chicken katsu sandwich and munches on it in frustration. Taiga is a professional and they are at work, but… Is it wrong to want more intimacy with your partner after a traumatic experience? Akihiro stabs the plate with a toothpick. Fujimori doesn’t ask and Akihiro doesn’t elaborate.
"Nngh…ah…hah…hah…"
Akihiro grunts as he puts coated fingers…two of them…three of them… No matter how far he pushes them in, no matter how wide he tries to scissor them inside… It's a poor substitute for his fingers. And while wrapping his other hand around his cock brings him closer to orgasm, he works his memories extra hard. He imagines bigger fingers, bigger hands; rougher touch, rougher strokes. He moans louder and louder as he approaches his climax, interspersed with nonsense about how good he feels and how much more he needs, as if trying to summon the man that should be here doing this to him. Loving him, wanting him, needing him, pleasuring him…
"Taiga!"
But more than anything, as embarrassing it may be to admit, imagining Taiga's fingers could never be enough because the one thing Akihiro craves is Taiga's cock. He’s not even normally so horny, but remembering how Taiga calls out for him when they have sex, how much love and desire emanate out of that man’s being…
"Taiga!"
With a shout, Akihiro comes all over his hand while recalling Taiga's satisfied look from three nights ago. Shortly after he gets up from the bed and heads to the bathroom to wash his mess. Yes, it's only been three nights, but to remember how he could have lost Taiga forever…
Maybe it doesn't matter that it has only been three days, when three days ago one of the scariest incidents of Akihiro's life occurred. Time is just a construct anyway. Right now Akihiro feels like time is moving so slowly. Is it the same for Taiga? Does he also need Akihiro, but is just suppressing it…
At least the weekend is soon…
Friday arrives. Akihiro had been so excited when he saw the meal delivered to him the next day, especially since it would give him extra minutes to observe Taiga in action, but then he sees the note from Ryu.
It is a nice note of appreciation, and Akihiro does appreciate being thanked for authorizing Taiga’s rescue mission, but it also informs him that Taiga didn’t need his help because Ryu had visited Taiga. Ryu had made the meal sitting in front of him here as well as the other food Taiga would be eating this week. Ryu is visiting and taking care of Taiga while Akihiro has been…reassured? Not asked for help?
“Agatsuma-kun.” Akihiro calls out to Taiga professionally at first. Taiga, not engaged in anything besides eating, moves closer to properly hear Akihiro’s request. Seeing that Tademaru is distracting Fujimori, Akihiro grabs Taiga’s sleeve.
“Taiga.” He pulls Taiga in close enough to whisper into his ear. Akihiro is not even attempting to disguise the personal nature of this conversation.
“Yes?”
“Stay over at my place tonight.”
A few moments pass. Tademaru is still chatting with Fujimori over the food, but they are still in the same room. Otherwise Akihiro would be leaving kisses against Taiga’s jaw.
“Understood.” Taiga steps away from Akihiro just as Fujimori looks back at them. Taiga slides back to where his half-eaten meal is and signals something to Fujimori. Tademaru slides over to Akihiro.
“All good?”
Of course Tademaru is not clueless. He’s already sent a message to Akihiro’s phone about the drycleaning pickup schedule and what suits to wear on which days next week. He knows Akihiro has plans to be busy this weekend…
“All good.” Akihiro gives Tademaru a thumbs-up and a smile. Of course whether the plans work out that way Akihiro wishes them to is another story, but finally having Taiga alone for an extended period of time… Maybe Akihiro can quell the unease that’s been swelling in his heart.
Three, two, one…
“Goodnight, Minister Sonogi.”
“See you on Monday.”
The door shuts and this time, Taiga is right beside Akihiro inside of his apartment. It’s been a week since the last time the two of them were alone in this apartment. A week only and yet it feels long enough for Akihiro to think finally. Finally he can have Taiga as his alone.
“I missed having you by my side.” Akihiro takes off his jacket and starts to loosen his tie. He’s trying to convey a casual atmosphere, to set Taiga at ease. At least compared to how the phone conversations had gone. “How long until you can return?”
Taiga purses his lips. “I was told that a broken hand takes two months to fully heal.”
“Two months?” Akihiro exclaims loudly, taken aback by that number. Two months is like 9 weeks, and only 1 week has passed. Being limited for that long, and way past the end of the IAF…past the time Taiga would be assigned to him by Internal Security…
“But in a few weeks I should be able to return.” Taiga gives a small smile. “In the meantime I am teaching classes and training to make my body even stronger still.”
“Oh?” A very nice image comes to Akihiro’s mind, one with Taiga’s muscles flexing as he lifts various weights in various ways, clothes semi-optional. “I want to see.”
Taiga blinks. “But aren’t you busy—"
“The results of your training.” Akihiro quickly realizes that Taiga has misunderstood the intent of his words. Yes, he doesn’t have time to watch Taiga at work. But what he wants is right in front of him. Putting his right hand on Taiga’s chest, Akihiro whispers lowly, “On your body.”
“My body?” But Taiga is already smiling by the time that Akihiro’s right hand slides up to Taiga’s shirt collar, to the back of Taiga’s neck, to pull Taiga’s face down a bit for a kiss. Action has spoken better than words here.
“Mm…” Akihiro goes in for a hot, wet kiss. Taiga responds with enthusiasm, bringing his right arm around Akihiro’s waist, his tongue sneaking into Akihiro’s mouth to tangle with Akihiro’s.
"Akihiro…san…need…more…"
Akihiro kisses and lets himself be kissed for a few minutes, spaced with half-coherent mumbled words of affection from Taiga, secure in Taiga’s one-armed embrace. But eventually, feeling enough attention has been given to Taiga's mouth, Akihiro pulls back and brings his left hand up, to start unbuttoning Taiga’s shirt.
“Amazing.” It’s probably not that much different than before; it’s only been a few days. But Akihiro has always been impressed by Taiga’s body, and any time they are together like this he is reminded just how broad Taiga’s chest is, just how much muscle is under that skin that he kneads…
“Akihiro-san…” Taiga moans as Akihiro’s thumbs press into his nipples. “Akihiro-san…”
Akihiro loves eliciting moans out of Taiga’s mouth just by rubbing Taiga’s nipples to hardness. But he also loves lapping his tongue around them, freeing his hands to continue unbuttoning Taiga’s shirt and feeling up the rest of Taiga’s chest as well as his abs.
“Akihiro-san…the bed…”
“Hmm?” Akihiro stops and looks up at Taiga. “What’s wrong with my bed?”
Taiga shakes his head. “We should move to the bed.” He frowns when Akihiro cocks his head in confusion. “It’ll be easier for you…not to kneel.”
“Ah.” Akihiro laughs. Taiga worrying about Akihiro having to kneel is very sweet of him. Akihiro has plans to give Taiga a blowjob soon so… A bed would be good. No need to stress his knees if he doesn’t have to.
And if on the way to said bed Akihiro can’t stop kissing Taiga, can’t stop touching Taiga… Taiga’s shirt ends up somewhere on the floor on the way, and his belt…
“Akihiro-san, I want you.”
“Hmm?” Akihiro's focus is solely on trying to unbuckle Taiga’s belt. The large cock that he wants to put in his mouth is still tucked into those black slacks.
“I want to please you too.”
“Sure.” Akihiro is plenty pleased having Taiga in his grasp. He manages to get the belt unbuckled and pulls down Taiga’s slacks to his knees.
"Akihiro-san." Taiga's fingers tug at Akihiro's shirt, bringing Akihiro's face to meet Taiga's. Akihiro goes in for a kiss, intending to wet his mouth with Taiga's saliva before returning down to put his mouth on Taiga's cock. But instead he feels Taiga's right hand slide down his side to land on his ass.
"Turn around." Taiga's fingers press against the crack between Akihiro's asscheeks. "Please."
Akihiro blushes as he finally gets what Taiga wants. Oh, Taiga, always wanting to simultaneously give Akihiro pleasure… "Let me take off my clothes then." Since it would be harder for Taiga to do that with only one functional hand.
Akihiro makes little show of taking off his clothes, going for speed instead of sex appeal. He also makes sure Taiga is fully naked as well before positioning his body over Taiga's, with his mouth over Taiga's cock and his cock positioned above Taiga's mouth. He takes hold of Taiga's cock with his left hand, rubbing it a bit as he gets ready to go for a long lick.
"Akihiro-san! Nngh…"
Akihiro smirks as he hears Taiga shout out his name. Once Taiga gets started, Akihiro will be the more vocal one, so he delights in making Taiga noisy, if only for a few moments.
"Mmm…Aki…hiro…san…"
And still so politely, even though Akihiro is sucking roughly the tip of Taiga's cock like it's a hard candy he's trying to suck dry. Except an unexpected sensation causes him to yelp, his mouth completely sliding off Taiga's cock, Taiga's cock slapping against his jaw.
"Taiga?! What…is…?" The hand on his asscheek is not strange, but what is this feeling, this wet…tongue? Not licking his cock, but tracing the outside of his hole?
Taiga's tongue withdraws. "Is it bad? Should I stop?"
"It's not…it just feels…weird." Akihiro understands using one's mouth on another's cock, or one's fingers to loosen another's asshole, but he isn't sure where the idea of using one's tongue in that place has come from. Still, Taiga hasn't steered them wrong before, at least when it comes to sexual acts.
Akihiro takes a deep breath, steadies his mind. "You can continue."
Taiga proceeds to lick Akihiro's hole with slow, cautious movements. He presses his tongue inside Akihiro only once Akihiro stops shaking at every lap made by said tongue. Akihiro finds the feeling of surprise starts to melt into a feeling of pleasure, and he focuses instead on returning to his task at hand, or bringing Taiga to orgasm with his mouth. Or at least he tries to. It's hard, though, when Taiga's tongue starts pushing inside him. It's even harder when the feeling of Taiga's tongue deep inside his hole is joined by the feeling of Taiga's right hand stroking his cock. It's…unfair.
"Ah…Taiga…it's…too…much…slow…down…"
If only Akihiro could get a moment of reprieve. At this rate he's going to spill into Taiga's hand before he even gets Taiga's cock to half-mast, let alone dripping any pre-cum. Of course Taiga would be content to continue servicing Akihiro, to make Akihiro come again and again until Akihiro has nothing more to spill, but Akihiro needs Taiga to come. Akihiro needs to see physical evidence that Taiga has missed being with Akihiro as much as…as fiercely as that night in the hospital room…
"I'm going to…if you keep…Taiga!"
"Akihiro-san…sorry…"
Taiga apologizes as he pauses his stroking of Akihiro's cock, his licking of Akihiro's hole. Instead his mouth peppers kisses over Akihiro's asscheeks and his right hand holds Akihiro's cock firmly, keeping Akihiro in a state where he is close but not allowed to come. Akihiro feels liquid build up in his eyes from staying near but not at the cusp. But Akihiro knows Taiga is doing this for him, so Akihiro can finally take Taiga's cock into his mouth, to take it fully in and give it the good stimulation it deserves.
"Nngh…"
Akihiro is rushing, though, only giving Taiga's cock the full throat stimulation twice before focusing on the tip while using his hands to rub the shaft. He's sucking and rubbing vigorously, willing Taiga's cock to swell to hardness. Taiga's grunts are the notes to the song Akihiro composes, a song of rather uneven rhythm and volume. Well, if Taiga has any complaints about this mix of blowjob and handjob, it's Taiga's fault. He was too good at using his tongue on Akihiro's ass.
"Akihiro-san…going to…"
"Let's come together."
"Yes…"
Taiga comes first with a loud grunt, his cum shooting into Akihiro's mouth. Reflexively Taiga loosens his hold on Akihiro's cock, which allows Akihiro to finally come as well, spilling his cum onto Taiga's chest. He blanks out for a few moments, the only sounds registering being the sounds of his and Taiga's heavy breathing. When he regains his bearings, he can taste the cum in his mouth, see the cum that he couldn't swallow, feel the tingle inside where his hole has been thoroughly licked and prodded. He's partially ready, partially satisfied. But he needs to be stretched more before he can take Taiga's cock up his ass.
And Taiga is definitely aware, already reaching for the bottle of lube kept near the bed. He coats his fingers before sticking them, one at a time, into Akihiro's hole to stretch Akihiro properly, to reach for Akihiro's sweet spot…
"Ah! Taiga!"
Akihiro hadn't been as loud when Taiga was using his tongue earlier, partially because Taiga had proceeded relatively cautiously. But Taiga is aggressive with his fingers, from experience knowing that Akihiro can take it, even if Akihiro spouts whatever comes to mind, how hot, how tingly, how strange he feels.
"I want you, Akihiro-san. I want you so much." Taiga repeats this over and over in response, as if Akihiro needs reassurance. Akihiro doesn't, but he loves hearing these words from Taiga nevertheless. After all, merely a week ago he was confronted with the possibility that he would never hear those words again. He's still shaken by that fear.
So he bucks into those fingers, wants Taiga to stretch him so he feels it for days, so that he is sustained until the next time they can be intimate… And he screams when Taiga's fingers hit his sweet spot, screams how good it feels…
"I need it…in me!"
"Akihiro-san…so good to me…"
Taiga's fingers withdraw completely, signaling that it is time for Akihiro to move. Akihiro repositions his body while Taiga quickly lubricates his cock. Now Akihiro looks down at Taiga's face, his legs straddling Taiga's waist, his hips ready to sink down on Taiga's cock. He feels time slow down as he anticipates the stretch, the friction, the fullness of Taiga's cock once fully sheathed inside him. Every stroke of Taiga's hand over his own cock seems torturously slow…surely there's enough lube on it now?
"Akihiro-san." Taiga's hand moves to brace against Akihiro's left hip.
"Let's go."
Taiga makes the slightest of nods, his eyes focused solely on Akihiro. Akihiro meets that heated look with his own, and, with hands secured onto Taiga's shoulders, lowers himself onto Taiga's cock at a measured rate. He relishes the way Taiga's eyes half-close, the jaw drop, and that drawn-out moan… Akihiro sinks down until Taiga's cock is fully ensheathed inside him, the tip of it brushing against his prostrate. He can't help but tilt his head back and release a loud moan of his own. This is what he needed a few days ago…what he needs every time they are intimate.
But it'll feel even better if he moves, if he awakens Taiga's cock and makes it swell to hardness. Akihiro lifts his hips up only to lower them again, a little bit faster, a little bit rougher with each subsequent ride. Taiga's right hand squeezes Akihiro's side but doesn't dictate the pace, only encourages.
"It feels…Taiga…so good…ahhhh…you inside…"
"Akihiro-san…I want…"
"Ahhhh…Taiga…Taiga…mmm!"
As Akihiro continues riding Taiga's cock, he seeks out Taiga's mouth with his own, wanting to slobber over it even if he can't properly kiss Taiga, not if he is to continue bringing them closer to orgasm. Taiga assists by sliding his right hand up Akihiro's side, around Akihiro's left arm cuff, until it cups the back of Akihiro's head. With that support in place, their mouths slot against each other more firmly, and Akihiro's moans are captured by Taiga's equally large…
"Nnngh…more…more…"
"Close…I feel…nnngh…"
Akihiro's eyes close as he focuses on how things feel physically, on the heat building up inside him and wanting to spill out from his cock. He feels Taiga's left hand cast press against his right side but oh does he not need any hand to get off; slamming Taiga's cock against his prostrate again and again is stimulation enough.
"Taiga…I…coming!"
"Nnngh…Akihiro-san!"
"Ahhhh…Taiga!"
Taiga releases first but only by a few seconds. The flood of Taiga's cum inside him is like a trigger, and only one more plunge is needed before Akihiro spills is own cum all over Taiga's chest. Akihiro's eyes fly open and he catches the expression of pure, raw pleasure on Taiga's face, and it makes his heart warm. He is the cause…their joining is the cause. And it's a sight only for him…Taiga is his lover and no one else…
"Mmm…"
Taiga leans in for a kiss. Akihiro returns it with passion, uncaring for the moment that Taiga's cock is still partway inside him, chasing instead a second peak of pleasure from another source. He's not looking to have more sex tonight; he feels entirely satisfied after coming on Taiga's cock. He just wants Taiga to know…
"I love you, Akihiro-san! I love you…"
"Me too…Taiga…my Taiga…"
Taiga's cock slips out as their kissing intensifies, Akihiro pressing Taiga backwards, flush against the headboard. It's a whole mess down there, with lube and cum and sweat all mixed up, but that's a problem for later, for after his and Taiga's lips are swollen and the flare of passion between them starts to cool down.
After a week of waiting, finally… They should talk in the morning but tonight… Tonight has been exactly what Akihiro needed.
Akihiro wakes up alone.
He and Taiga had gone to bed together after cleaning their bodies; Akihiro distinctly remembers falling asleep to the rhythm rise and fall of Taiga's chest. Akihiro frowns as he finds the spot beside him in the bed is cold, meaning Taiga has left the bed for some time. Did Taiga…leave the apartment?
Akihiro flings off the covers but then just lays there, cursing himself, berating himself. Taiga has a morning routine, right? It's not Taiga has left because he doesn't feel… Akihiro is realizing once again how selfish he is when it comes to Taiga.
But he also trusts Taiga, and a sound from the kitchen suggests that Taiga is over there…making breakfast?
Akihiro slides out of the bed, pulls out a T-shirt from his dresser and slips it over his head before heading into the kitchen. Coffee is waiting for him, still steaming.
"Good morning, Akihiro-san."
“Ah, thanks, Taiga.”
Akihiro sits down at the table, across from Taiga. This isn't breakfast but it's good enough for Akihiro for now. Actual breakfast would mean Taiga left Akihiro's apartment and if he had done so looking like that, hair mussed and only wearing a pair of slacks…
Akihiro frowns. He wants to wake up to this sight every day.
"Akihiro-san?"
Akihiro lets out a deep sigh. Well, inviting Taiga over wasn’t just about having sex. He needs to tell Taiga how he really feels, how he has really felt this past week. Reaching out with his left hand, Akihiro smiles when Taiga grasps it with his right. Akihiro then meets Taiga’s gaze with his own.
“You know, after what happened… No, even before that happened, I was wondering how to keep you." Taiga's eyes widen at those words, but Akihiro presses forward. "I was wondering if I could ask you to be my exclusive SP. Because I want to see you every day.”
Taiga squeezes Akihiro's hand firmly. "I want to be by your side, Akihiro-san." He punctuates his next words. "Every day. Every night.”
Oh Taiga…being so honest and sweet… Akihiro swallows, trying to maintain composure. "When you…" He pauses, restarts. "When it seemed you were doing fine on your own, not asking me for help… When you brought in lunch from Ryu…"
A worried expression crosses Taiga's face. "He was just thanking—"
"I know." Akihiro smiles softly. He knows Taiga's heart is his. "And you were trying to act professional."
Taiga looks down at their joined hands. "I don't want to interrupt your work."
"I know. It was all me…" Akihiro takes to heart Taiga's sentiments, Taiga's point of view. The words Taiga couldn't say, because technically Akihiro is also his boss. Of course this was the case; if Akihiro had thought for a moment outside his own point of view… "Taiga."
Taiga looks back up at Akihiro. "Yes?"
Akihiro licks his lips. Alright, here he goes. “I want to you to live with me.”
Taiga chokes and his cheeks redden. “Akihiro-san!”
Akihiro smiles wryly. “I know publicly we can’t be out." He knows all too well what it would look like for a politician, and why no one is out at the Diet level. "But I still want to be with you. If we have to wait until you are fully healed before we can—”
“I will move in!" Taiga interrupts excitedly. He flushes and Akihiro chuckles. Taiga smiles sheepishly. "And I can talk to Miyaoka-san.”
Akihiro grins. “Let’s both talk to him. I think he probably suspects…”
He remembers briefly, right after they rescued Taiga, how Miyaoka had complained that Taiga had only called for Akihiro-san and had not spared one murmured thought for his beloved superior at Internal Security. Akihiro knows that Miyaoka and Taiga have a semi-father and son-like relationship. Definitely beyond that of superior and underling, mentor and mentee. So he's likely in tune with Taiga's emotions at some level. And if he hasn't made any complaint to Akihiro beyond wishing for a little thought spared his way after a life-threatening incident, well… It should go well.
Akihiro stands up, abandoning his still half-full cup of coffee in order to embrace Taiga from behind. "I love you, Taiga."
Taiga twists his head so that his face meets Akihiro's. "I love you too, Akihiro-san."
That returned declaration is followed up by a soft, sweet kiss. A mere press of lips to lips that serves as a promise, an oath, a wish. It devolves into more intense kissing, mostly because Akihiro loves kissing Taiga, and Taiga loves kissing Akihiro back. Until Taiga tugs at Akihiro’s T-shirt and Akihiro pulls away.
“Shall we get breakfast?” As nice as all the intimacy is right now, Akihiro is hungry.
“Yes, Akihiro-san.”
Akihiro laughs as he returns to the bedroom, looking for an outfit to wear outside, while Taiga picks up his shirt from the floor. Oh, what would it be like to have some of Taiga’s clothes in their closet… Well, that will hopefully be a sight Akihiro sees in the future, if all things go well.
And if not, they’ll find other ways to be together, no matter what.